4/18/2010

bored to death, i am seriously going to loose it. i mean seriously. i only have today and then maybe 1 or 2 days after today before all i am doing is caring for my son and i wanted to try and have a little fun or hang out with my friends. But unfortunately i don't get that. i get the do what i am told as well as sit around bored and alone and wish i were able to have fun these last couple days. i mean my wife doesn't have to go back to work till July i have to wake up and go to work Monday morning which does happen to be tomorrow. she doesn't understand that she gets to stay home and relax until the baby comes i have to work and work hard all week and then next week as well. fuck i just want like a tiny bit of time to do something I want to do. i mean seriously from building all the baby stuff and doing all the baby shopping and cooking and cleaning and everything else i would like i am entitled to a little bit of release. true that is my wife reads this she will say you had billy come hang out last night but still i mean seriously that was like me begging people on Facebook to hang out because i am not allowed to go out or anything so i was trying to at least have friends over and the only one who came was Billy.FUCK I JUST WANT TO HAVE A RELAXING FUN FILLED WEEKEND WITH MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY OR SOMETHING THAT IS SOMETHING I WANT TO DO. SOMETHING THAT IS GOING TO MAKE ME NOT REALIZE I AM THE ONE WHO IS GOING TO BE WORKING 11 HOURS A DAY EVERYDAY TO ENSURE MY FAMILY EATS. whatever i am done complaining. i am going to go now. have a good day people.