3/24/10

today was a day that just pushed me over the edge. i hate when my integrity is challenged at work. i am a damn good employee and i work hard for it. i don't play games or mess around i get it done. but whatever i need to grow thicker skin i guess. so anyways, Jaime and i did babies in bellies this last weekend and we got the link to the pics today. they are awesome, expensive but awesome. so i hope i can get some money together to get most of them. did i mention i got my car back and i was broken down again on the 101 yesterday but i am such a mechanical genius i figured it out and got it running and to work. it was awesome, minus the part about being stuck broken down. so yet again i come home and try and make my wife realize i am here and cook an amazing dinner that i know is her favorite but she just goes right to sleep right after. i kind of feel like we are just friends having a child and not lovers that are married having a kid. i wish she was there like she used to be. i am still here. i know what your thinking and i am not just seeing it from my side. it is the truth. well anyways moving right along i do have a big day tomorrow and it is already late, i was going write more but i do have to try and get some rest eventually because i don't sleep well as it is. oh i probably didn't mention that, i don't sleep well. i had some traumatic events happen to where i do not sleep well. its been almost 4 years since i actually slept well. but hey that is how life goes. well anyways i am going to try and sleep and if i cant i will come back and tell you some more about me. good night.